At this moment

At this moment, I am trying to do a thousand different things at once.  My mind is in a whirlwind almost all the time.  So, let me try to catch you up.

I’m in the middle of a job search.  I love working with customers, but some of the rules from upper management (NOT my store manager, just to be clear), are stupid and ridiculous and makes the job hard.  There are quite a few people who are upset.

I had been studying for the CompTIA Cloud + certification since January.  I am happy to report that I passed on April 19.  Yay me!  So what does that mean?  Well, theoretically, it means I have the knowledge to go into a cloud position somewhere.  Unfortunately, I don’t have the experience, so that’s part of what my job search is for.

I’m planning on studying for the Network + certification as well.  Theoretically, I studied for it before the Cloud + test, but I want to make certain I can pass it.  I’m also going to take an ITIL and possibly Security +.  Long story short, I’m going to be doing a lot of studying to get a good foundation in the information technology field.

My children are doing well, even though they aren’t children really.  Princess is 20, and is at home now.  We’re working on communicating better.  She often brings her nieces over to stay the night.  I like them even though they aren’t “blood.”  I’m trying to get them to call me “Auntie Moo” but I don’t know if that will ever happen.

Boo is 19.  She just finished her freshman year at community college.  And while she didn’t get straight A’s, she kept going, and I’m proud of her for that.   She has decided to be an middle school English teacher.  It is a noble calling.

Little Bit is 13 and seems to have adjusted to public school pretty well.  She loves Social Studies and her flute class.  She has quite a few friends.

But one of the things that has been keeping me busy is that we are dealing with depression.  Boo was diagnosed first.  We’ve been very open with it.  She sees a therapist.  I make sure she knows she is loved.  And that God gives us all feelings, both good and bad.

But then Little Bit came up.  It was just her and me in the house.  She says, “Mom, I need to let you know that I’ve been feeling depressed to the point of hurting myself.”  Well, so we’ve been dealing with that.  I got her in to see the same therapist as Boo.  I took her to the pediatrician’s office.  I’ve been very open with her as well.

But that’s taken quite a chunk of my time and energy.  In fact, it’s drained me.  I was not expecting it.  She doesn’t show the typical “signs.”  It felt a bit out of left field, and knocked me for a loop.  I have moments I can’t breathe.  But I take moment, catch my breathe and keep going.

I’ve also been practicing my photography.  I went to the Ozark Pirate Fest last weekend, and took over 1000 pictures.  Which I also need to edit.  But I had a lot of fun and got quite a few nice shots.  I would love it if you go over to my Facebook page and let me know which ones you like.  Gardner Photographix was named after my dad.

Let’s see… job search, studying, depression, photography.  Oh, I guess I should mention Dale.  🙂  He’s the love of my life.  He’s so very supportive of everything I do.  He’s my best friend.

Well, I think that’s all.  I’ve got to go to work soon.  I’m going to try to keep up on my writing.  Have a great day everyone.



Family night

We’ve started having family night on Mondays. Tonight we played D&D as a family. Boo was our DM.

Reasons I love Dale:

143. He has a twisted sense of humor sometimes.

144. He can calm me down when I lose my temper.

145. He loves our girls. All 3 of them.

146. He’s willing to be flexible as needed.

I’m sorry. I’m falling asleep while writing. I’ll need to stop here.



Reasons Project

Alright, I’m going to write about something different and a bit happier now.  I’m going to write about my husband.

It’s surprising to me how many people are actually reading this little project of mine.  I hope that it shows that anyone can change their attitude towards their significant other, simply by how they choose to celebrate them.

I will admit it’s rough at times.  He still frustrates me at times.  But I can recognize that sometimes, it really is how I choose to look at things.  Or it’s hormones.  I’m finally mature enough to realize that sometimes those pesky female hormones actually do affect me way more than I like.

But I think over all, I’ve made progress.  I do try to see things from his perspective.  We do talk quite a bit more.  I still love him.

Alright, on to the mushy stuff.  Tomorrow is going to be a long day, and I’m already sleepy.

Reasons I love Dale:

110. The way he explains difficult things to me.  If I’m having trouble with a concept, he helps me figure it out.

111.  I love his crinkles around his eyes.

112.  He is aging quite nicely.  Salt and pepper looks good on him.

113.  Somewhere along the way, he’s gone from being insecure in his field to having almost a management mentality.  I’m proud of him for this.

114.  He rides the bus so that I can use the car if needed, but also to save money.

115.  He eats leftovers for lunch.

116. He falls asleep sitting up.

117.  He goes to school things if faire or work interferes with me attending.

118.  He knows how to make a dollar stretch.

119.  His love of TV crime shows, like NCIS or CSI or JAG.

120.  His love of fantasy and science fiction books.

121.  His predictability.  Yes, this occasionally makes me frustrated, but I’m choosing to see it as a blessing tonight.

That’s all I have, and I really need to go to bed.  I’m going to attempt to get up at 5:30 with Boo tomorrow morning to try riding the bus to her college campus.  Wish us luck!




Busy busy busy

It’s the last two weeks before faire starts. It’s the last push to learn lines, verses, music, etc. Tweaks to the costume and characters. Add in work and church. Plus add in that we started Little Bit in public school this morning. And I’m currently waiting on Boo who is enrolling in community college right now. 

I’m swamped. And tired. 

I’m still working on this list, because I think it’s that important. I just have to work on it when I can. 

Reasons I love Dale:

100. His integrity. 

101. His persistence. 

102. His patience. 

103. His ability to sight read any part. 

104. The way he stops what he’s doing if I simply need a hug. 

105. His tenderness towards the girls. 

106. His ability to know when I need more or different help than he can give. 

107. His tenderness towards me. 

108. I love how he tries to explain his work to me. Sometimes I get it, sometimes I don’t. But that doesn’t stop him from trying. 

109. The way he makes me laugh. 

Okay, that’s all I have for now. I’m going to try to sit patiently and wait on Boo. But I’d rather be sleeping. 




I am distracted beyond belief right now.  Facebook is such a time suck.  I was supposed to have this post written an hour ago, and instead, got sucked into the void of trying to figure out someone’s name.

Rehearsal for faire is going well.  The Singing Princesses got a few more lines today, which was nice.

We started cleaning upstairs.  6 bags of trash.  Multiple boxes.  Princess is still such a big part of our lives, that little things make Boo and I hurt.  One day, she may understand.  Until then, I have to rest in the knowledge that I did my best, and she made the decision to leave.  Not me.

On to happier topics.

Reasons I love Dale:
57.  I love how good he is with our girls.  He really tries to be a good daddy and help them when he can.  Boo is hurting, and he just took her out to dinner.  Nothing more than that.
58.  I love how he is a morning person.  He makes getting out of bed a little bit easier.
59.  I love how he uses his talents at church.  I miss sitting with him sometimes, but I know he is serving God in one of the best ways he can.
60.  I love how he doesn’t really know how to take a selfie.  He tries, but fails.  But he also lets me take his picture whenever I want.  And I love that about him, too.  (61)

Okay, I think it’s time for me to go to sleep now.  My eyes are starting to cross.  lol