At this moment

At this moment, I am trying to do a thousand different things at once.  My mind is in a whirlwind almost all the time.  So, let me try to catch you up.

I’m in the middle of a job search.  I love working with customers, but some of the rules from upper management (NOT my store manager, just to be clear), are stupid and ridiculous and makes the job hard.  There are quite a few people who are upset.

I had been studying for the CompTIA Cloud + certification since January.  I am happy to report that I passed on April 19.  Yay me!  So what does that mean?  Well, theoretically, it means I have the knowledge to go into a cloud position somewhere.  Unfortunately, I don’t have the experience, so that’s part of what my job search is for.

I’m planning on studying for the Network + certification as well.  Theoretically, I studied for it before the Cloud + test, but I want to make certain I can pass it.  I’m also going to take an ITIL and possibly Security +.  Long story short, I’m going to be doing a lot of studying to get a good foundation in the information technology field.

My children are doing well, even though they aren’t children really.  Princess is 20, and is at home now.  We’re working on communicating better.  She often brings her nieces over to stay the night.  I like them even though they aren’t “blood.”  I’m trying to get them to call me “Auntie Moo” but I don’t know if that will ever happen.

Boo is 19.  She just finished her freshman year at community college.  And while she didn’t get straight A’s, she kept going, and I’m proud of her for that.   She has decided to be an middle school English teacher.  It is a noble calling.

Little Bit is 13 and seems to have adjusted to public school pretty well.  She loves Social Studies and her flute class.  She has quite a few friends.

But one of the things that has been keeping me busy is that we are dealing with depression.  Boo was diagnosed first.  We’ve been very open with it.  She sees a therapist.  I make sure she knows she is loved.  And that God gives us all feelings, both good and bad.

But then Little Bit came up.  It was just her and me in the house.  She says, “Mom, I need to let you know that I’ve been feeling depressed to the point of hurting myself.”  Well, so we’ve been dealing with that.  I got her in to see the same therapist as Boo.  I took her to the pediatrician’s office.  I’ve been very open with her as well.

But that’s taken quite a chunk of my time and energy.  In fact, it’s drained me.  I was not expecting it.  She doesn’t show the typical “signs.”  It felt a bit out of left field, and knocked me for a loop.  I have moments I can’t breathe.  But I take moment, catch my breathe and keep going.

I’ve also been practicing my photography.  I went to the Ozark Pirate Fest last weekend, and took over 1000 pictures.  Which I also need to edit.  But I had a lot of fun and got quite a few nice shots.  I would love it if you go over to my Facebook page and let me know which ones you like.  Gardner Photographix was named after my dad.

Let’s see… job search, studying, depression, photography.  Oh, I guess I should mention Dale.  🙂  He’s the love of my life.  He’s so very supportive of everything I do.  He’s my best friend.

Well, I think that’s all.  I’ve got to go to work soon.  I’m going to try to keep up on my writing.  Have a great day everyone.



FMF – Secret

Well, hello there.  It’s only been a month.  I’ve been so busy that my little bitty blog kind of gets ignored.  I’m sorry about that.

So I’m jumping back in to writing with Five Minute Friday.  I’ll write on the prompt tonight and then tomorrow, I’ll try to write a catch up post.  A lot has happened in a month.

So Five Minute Friday is hosted over at the Five Minute Friday blog.  She gives us a one word prompt that we all write on for 5 minutes at a time, no editing.  Then you go back to her blog, you link up and you comment on the post ahead of you.  Let me think…  I think that’s all of the important things.  Link, prompt, blog, comment… Yep, that’s it.

Today’s prompt is SECRET.


And GO:

I have a secret.  I have a huge sweet tooth.  Of course, that’s probably obvious if you’ve ever met me.  My size sort of gives it away.  But I love candy.

I have a secret.  I love to take pictures of people.  I’m not that great at it, but I love doing it.  I’ve been taking pictures for what feels like a long time.  It’s fun to see where I used to be, and where I’m coming up to.

I have a secret.  I watch R-rated movies sometimes.  The language is rough, and there’s a lot of unnecessary violence usually.  But sometimes there is a good story buried in there.

I have a secret.  I have always wanted to be a writer.  But I’ve never had anyone tell me my writing is good.  I have a dreadful fear of green ink because of the editing an English teacher did.

I have a secret.  I fight depression.  It’s more than just feeling “sad” at times.  It can be an overwhelming crushing weight on my soul.  I often have to remind myself of why I am still around and why I still choose to live.

I have a secret.  I am a sinner.  My sin doesn’t look like your sin.  That’s because it’s my sin.  I will own what I have done wrong.  I confess it before God.

And because He loves me, He forgives me.  Not because of anything I did, but because of who He is.  He is the Lord of all.  He sent Jesus to take my punishment.  And Jesus paid that price.  And then he rose up out of that grave.

And that’s not a secret.  That is something I will shout from the rooftops.  Jesus loves me and I love him!  Thank you Jesus. Thank you.




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So, one of my “new” things this year is that I’m trying to get various certifications for the IT industry.  The first one I’m trying to get is the CompTIA Cloud + certification.  I’m both excited and nervous to say that I’ve scheduled my test for Thursday, April 19th.  I’m not sure I’m ready, but I’m definitely going to try.

I don’t want to admit it, but I’m nervous.  I seem to be doing well in the practice tests.  But I don’t feel like I’ve studied everything I need to.  What if I miss it all?  What if I fail?

And so I know I need to study, but at the same time, I’m concerned that I won’t concentrate like I need to.  I’ve started binge watching a TV show (thanks Netflix), and it’s distracting me.  So, do I postpone my test, and study a little more, or do I keep going with my scheduled test?

And Dale and I are taking our first vacation in years.  So we’re trying to decide where to go.  So that’s occupying part of my thoughts.  We’re thinking we’re going to go North or West for our trip.  Like Colorado.  Or South Dakota.

Which brings me to the real reason for tonight’s post.

Reasons I love Dale:

214.  He is a great encourager.  He has encouraged me from Day 1 to take this test.  He’s keeping me sane while I get ready for it.
215.  He’s actually pretty imaginative.  We play D&D with a group of friends.  He introduced a new character tonight, and he’s pretty excited about it.
216.  He’s very helpful around the house.  If I need help, he does whatever I need.  Today, he did the laundry.

I love my husband.  He’s my best friend.  I’m glad I’m doing this series for him.


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IT Analogy

I came up with the perfect analogy for the IT industry. My youngest and I were talking, and she told me, “Mom, I don’t want to go into programming like you and Daddy keep pushing.”

I said, “That’s fine, but we really haven’t talked about programming as much as IT in general.”

She looked confused and said, “but I thought they were the same.”

I looked around and asked, “where are we?”  We happened to be in our church’s library at the time.

She stated, “the library.”

And I asked her, “What’s in the library?”

She looked at me like I was crazy.  “Books.”

“And what’s in the books?”

I definitely got a “Momma is crazy” look that time.  “Words.  Letters.”

And then I pointed to two books on one of the shelves.  And I asked her point blank, “Is this book the same as this book?”  The answer was no, of course.

The thing about it is that we have different sections in our church library.  The biographies aren’t the same as the devotional books aren’t the same as the church history books.  I explained to her that even in programming, there were different “books” or areas to study.  That in IT, there is programming, and hardware, and software, and so many other areas to study that you don’t have to limit yourself to just one book.  So, she doesn’t have to study programming, but that we hope that she looks at other areas of IT as well.

So, if you are looking at a new career, don’t get discouraged.  Maybe you just aren’t looking on the right bookshelf.


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Meeting New People

So my word of the year has been “New.”  I’ve been trying to right about different things, like my job search and the new things I’ve been learning.  I’ve not done a fantastic job at it, but I’m trying.

So tonight, I had a new experience.  Dale took me to a meeting of ISC2.  I met new people and tried to follow along with the speaker.  Quite honestly, I followed about half of the speaker.  But considering that I wouldn’t have followed any of it in November, that’s saying a lot!

I tried my hand at networking with people, but most of them were looking for upper or mid management levels.  I’m only entry level.

As I told Dale, one thing I took away from tonight was that while I understand that I need to be aware of the different safety and security issues and follow the advice given to me by whatever IT team I will be working with, but I don’t think I want to go into the security field.  So, I’m probably going to be taking Security + off of my list of certifications I want to take.

These are all so new thoughts, that my head hurts.  I’ve always heard that to stay young at heart, you need to learn new things.  I can literally feel the new neurons forming in my brain.

But now, it is time to rest those little grey cells.  (Bonus points if you know the reference.)  Here’s to learning more and more new things every day!


P.S.  If you follow me on Twitter or Facebook, please know that I am trying to write frequently, but I am also trying to keep my super secret project under wraps, so I don’t link to them right now.

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